My journal

this song makes me happy hehee

2009-08-06T20:20:50Z

lyrics

This is how it works
It feels a little worse
Than when we drove our hearse
Right through that screaming crowd
While laughing up a storm
Until we were just bone
Until it got so warm
That none of us could sleep
And all the styrofoam
Began to melt away
We tried to find some worms
To aid in the decay
But none of them were home
Inside their catacomb
A million ancient bees
Began to sting our knees
While we were on our knees
Praying that disease
Would leave the ones we love
And never come again

On the radio
We heard November Rain
That solo's really long
But it's a pretty song
We listened to it twice
'Cause the DJ was asleep

This is how it works
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath

No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Pumping someone else's blood
And walking arm in arm
You hope it don't get harmed
But even if it does
You'll just do it all again

And on the radio
You hear November Rain
That solo's awful long
But it's a good refrain
You listen to it twice
'Cause the DJ is asleep
On the radio
(oh oh oh)
On the radio
On the radio - uh oh
On the radio - uh oh
On the radio - uh oh
On the radio

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2009-08-06T18:27:07Z

hello all

2009-08-05T18:39:50Z

nothing much new in my life...

school starts monday, thats about it..

well, bye

something i wrote down on monday

2009-06-04T06:48:35Z

okay, so today is the first monday of summer vacay
its awesome. some of my books are gonna come out. one of them did come out today, im just waiting for mom to get off work so i cant go to barns and noble. woo.
im sooo fookin excited for tomorrow though cause the sims 3 finally releases after 5 whole months!!!!!!!!!!!! ahaha. its gonna be the shitz... lol.

i'm also excited because im gonna start drivers education this weekend, yeah the classes are every saturday from like 9 to 5 i think. i could have had to do it everyday but i hear its really intense but anyways. so if all goes well ill most likely have my drivers lisence by the end of june or the start of school next year. the down side is that im doing my 50 hours of behind the wheel with my grandma and her housemate but whatever cause if i do it with my mother we'll prolly end up arguing and shitsz like that... so im cool with that.

my dad is finally coming around to chill with me. yeah he comes over every like wednesday cause he doesnt have classes that day. yupp he went back to college. im soo proud of him. i dont think im gonna go to college myself though, i just dont really see any need for it in my life. eh *shrug* but my like whole family just assumes that i am and theyre like pressuring me about it like where am i going blah blah blah... eh...i understand though. they just want whats best for me.. ah families, gatta love them. lol.

as far as my artistic life is going, i am really staring get out of my writer's block...ive got like a paragraph of innocence already but im not gonna finish the chapter till i have a whole page, thats what ive been doing for a few chapters for a while now.. anyways.. uhm.. yeah... no songs/poems yet. sorry. my life is still too dull for something like that...perhaps ill try to write something about my new guy that i found. lol. yeah i has found a guy that actually ikes me back. hes in a diff state sadly but it doesnt matter..
on the otherhand, im gonna still try looking for someone at my school, and before you go saying something that im like a cheater or something, first let me say something... he is like 18 to begin with and thats no bueno cause im not even 16 yet, so yeah and hes not in high school anymoars and yeah...*sigh* its kinda hard to explain so ill leave it at that... anyways....
if youd like to talk about anything i just blabbed about, message/comment..
p.s. haha wow i just typed all that without looking at the keyboard XD

Hello my dear friends...

2009-02-02T02:32:57Z

My last post mentioned something about me doing wii fit and posting results every two weeks... well if you have noticed,,, i have yet to do so... so uhm... yeah.. im not going to..lol.... uhm... im bored XD

Wii fit

2008-11-15T06:01:40Z

No, you did not read the subject line incorrectly. I Renee Brower, has finally gotten herself a wii fit. EEEP, im soo excited. :D
So, i have decided to keep a fit log on here starting today. well, if you care to read about it and all. anyways.. I wont use picture markers though... you'll just have to trust what i type on here. So without further adue...

Friday, November 14, 2008

Weight- 245.6 IBS [[as of 8:30 pm]]
BMI- 41.93

Short term goal (- 2 IBS every 2 weeks)
Long term goal (-95 IBS)

Well, wish me luck peoples.

this is musicllv signing out ;D

survey

2008-10-12T08:41:05Z

Take This If You are Bored, and Bored Only! (all the surveys combined, very long!)

First best friend: Brianna S.
First job: none.
First screen name: k9qtea
First self purchased cd: i dont remember
First piercing/tattoo: piercing-ears/ tatoo- temporary only
First enemy: none yet
First big trip: new york, when i was in 5th grade
Latest good cry: like a year ago, i think.. well its been a while
Latest library book: i dont remember
Latest beverage drank: diet dr pepper
Latest food consumed: chips
Last phone call: moms friend
Last time showered: this morning
Last CD Played: Cascada- perfect day
Last annoyance: i couldnt find my ipod
Last shirt worn: my red top.
Last website visited: deviantArt.com
Describe your wallet: black with a pic of jack sparrow with a pink backrund and it says i love capt. jack sparrow
Describe your underwear: blue
Describe your tattoo: none. but i wanna get one with either wings or fangs
Describe your hair: poofy
Describe your eyes: very pretty [or at least thats what they say]]
Describe your room: messy and cluttered
Salt or Pepper: salt
"Okay," "OK," "ok," or "O.K.": ok.. i usually spell it "kay" these days.
bright colors or dark colors: dark
tic-tac or certs: tic-tack
sunshine or rain: rain
rain or snow: rain
sun or moon: moon
silver or gold: silver
silk, cotton, or flannel sheets: whichever
preps or freaks: freaks
ketchup, mayo, mustard, or relish: ketchup
shampoo+conditioner, or 2 in 1: shampoo*conditioner
If You Were____, What would you be?
an animal: dog/ wolf.. maybe a cat
a fruit: i dunnno
a vegetable: no clue
a color: midnight blue
a bug: i dunno really
Are you smart:: sometimes
Do you like onions: no
what intruments can you play?: my vocals [[ i wanna learn how to play the guitar]]
what words do you overuse?: omg, nice
do you sleep with socks on?: no
are you ticklish: yeah kinda
are you shy?: yes!
do you talk to yourself?: hahah possibly
do you have a bsement or an attick: no
did you go to preschool: yes.
are you a morning person?: no
Your full name: RNB.. ill leave it at that
your nick name: lexi, nea nea [[ pronounced nay nay]]
your birthplace: a hospital
your height: almost 5'5
righty or lefty: left
zodiac sigh: virgo
your heritage: a lot of things actuallly
your fears: too mamy to count
Your perfect pizza: cheesy
goals you'd like to acheive: good grades
your most over used phrase on AIM:: lol, omg, nice, haha, lmao [[ nd i use MSN]]
your thoughts first wakingup: varies
your thoughts at bedtime: varies
your most missed memory:: the 90's
Pepsi or Coke:: whichever
McDonald or Burger King: bk
Single date or group date: single
adidas or nick: whichever
lipton iced tea or nestea: niether
chocolate or vanilla: whichever
cappuccino or coffe: cappuccino
smoke:: no
curse?: yeah, but im trying not to these days
sing??: yes!!
take shower everyday: yeah
do you think you've been in love: i thought i was but i really wasnt
want to go to college: yeah, sort of
like(d) high school: no.. at the moment.. it kinda sucks
get marreid: i want to someday
believe in yourself: no
get motion sickness: yeah, kinda
get aong with your parent(s): occasionally
like thrunderstorms: yeah
In the past Month!
drank alcohol: no
gone on a date: no
gonet to the mall: no
eaten an entire box of oreos: no
eaten sushi: no
been on stage: yeah
been dumped: no
gone skating: no
made homemade cookies: no
skinny dipping: no
dyed your hair: no
stolen anything: no
Have you ever
played a game that required removal of clothing?: no
been caught "doing something": yeah, noting grose though. just innocent stuff
been called a tease: no
gotten beat up: no
changed who you were to fit in: yeah
What age do you hope to get married?: not really sure right now
numbers and names of children: 2 at the most. Girl- Alexandria Boy-Robert[[so i can call him bob lol]]
describe your dream wedding: still being created
how do you want to die: peacfully
what do you want to be when you grow up: rockstar/ vocalist
In a guy/girl
best eye color: dont really care
best hair color: " "
short or long hair: short
height: a bit taller than me
best articles of clothing: which ever
best first date location: somewhere outside near water at night
best frist kiss location: i dunno
Number of...
people you could trust with my life: i can think of some
pet you have: 2
scars on your body: --
things in your past that you regret.: everyone has something they regret doing

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OMG D:

2008-08-27T03:41:29Z

ITS A DUCK!!!!

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my quiz results: "What inner power do you posses?"

2008-07-30T22:24:05Z

I Swear this is true!!

What Inner Power Do You Posses?

Telepathic Communication

Telepathic communication is the ability to speak to and respond to others, but it is not the way e-mail is used, or the telephone, it is through your mind. This can lead to the fact that you do not like others who speak of you behind closed doors. You often dwell on what your enemies or the people who mock you are thinking, and sometimes it drives you insane because you can never truly know their innermost thoughts. You would like to be able to read minds.

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Update

2008-07-25T00:00:11Z

Hai all,
nothing much is really new with me. I'm starting to get into UK electronica these days. especially CASCADA i love dancing to her songs. they're awesome. i also have discovered the band skilet. i love them!!!! especially whispers in the dark and comatose. those are totally awesome songs too.

anyways. im kinda happy that im not a freshman anymore go sophomores w00t w00t :D but that also means that school's gna start soon. i soo don't wanna go to school. all the boys suck (im not gna mention what.. XD lolz jk) and all thats left are the jerks.ugh. and then theres this whole thing about my crush who's been totally head over heels for my "sister". ugh. its just yeah very frustrating.. maybe ill find someone new with the coming year. *crosses fingers* maybe ill find a cute emo guy.. they are totally hott. *sigh* *melt* *sigh again* i just cant get past that awesomatic hair. <3 <3

in other news....
i haven't been dreaming lately. its kinda weird... i miss my dreams...(haha visualizes that one dream commercial with the talking beaver and abe linkin playing cards) oh wells..

im gna start posting writing stuff that i write and stuff. so yeah...

chats:

AIM: musicllv
YAHOO!: k9qtea
im usually on yahoo more than aim these days so.. try that one first..
toodles ^^

Vampires or Werewolves poll

2008-07-24T14:15:44Z

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life and other shizz

2008-05-24T18:48:40Z

okay so yeah.. i know i haven't been online for a while., and imz sorry about that. but heres an update on my so called life.

boys stink.
music rocks
i only have 1 1/2 days of freshman year left (tuesday, wednesday, and thursday are all half days)
currently i am writing a story that is not for the innocent minded and surprizingly enough its called innocence

i am kinda mad that the really good books that i like are fall read instead of summer reads. i mean yeah it'll give yah something to do while im in school but what am i supposed to do during summer vacation?!?!?!? eh i'll try to find something to do... i could always just re-read the books i already have right now.. i guess. ..

oh btw speaking of books.. i found this really cool author named richelle mead.. i don't know how to pronounce her name but whatever.. she's a cool author.. shes written the vampire academy books

//Lissa Dragomir is a Moroi princess: a mortal vampire with an unbreakable bond to the earth's magic. She must be protected at all times from Strigoi; the fiercest and most dangerous vampires--the ones who never die.

The powerful blend of human and vampire blood that flows through Rose Hathaway, Lissa's best friend, makes her a Dhampir; she is dedicated to a dangerous life of protecting Lissa from the Strigoi, who are hell-bent on making her one of them.

After two years of illicit freedom, Rose and Lissa are caught and dragged back to St. Vladimir's Academy, hidden in the deep forests of Montana. Rose will continue her Dhampir education. Lissa will go back to being Queen of the elite Moroi social scene. And both girls will resume breaking hearts.

Fear made Lissa and Rose run away from St. Vladimir's--but their world is fraught with danger both inside and out of the Academy's iron gates. Here, the cutthroat ranks of the Moroi perform unspeakable rituals and their secretive nature and love of the night creates an enigmatic world full of social complexities. Rose and Lissa must navigate through this dangerous world, confront the temptation of forbidden romance, and never once let their guard down, lest the Strigoi make Lissa one of them forever...

another book series that shes made is the georgina kinkaid series..

When it comes to jobs in hell, being a succubus seems pretty glamorous. A girl can be anything she wants. The wardrobe is killer, and mortal men will do anything just for a touch. Granted, they often pay with their souls, but why get technical?

But Seattle succubus Georgina Kincaid’s life is far less exotic. Her boss is a middle-management demon with a thing for John Cusack movies. Her immortal best friends haven’t stopped teasing her about the time she shape-shifted into the Demon Goddess get-up complete with whip and wings. And she can’t have a decent date without sucking away part of the guy’s life. At least there’s her day job at a local bookstore—free books, all the white chocolate mochas she can drink, and easy access to bestselling, sexy writer, Seth Mortensen, aka He Whom She Would Give Anything to Touch but Can’t.

But dreaming about Seth will have to wait. Something wicked is at work in Seattle’s demon underground. And for once, all of her hot charms and drop-dead one-liners won’t help because Georgina’s about to discover there are some creatures out there that both heaven and hell want to deny…

Richelle has also made a book called dark swan but it doesn't come out till like september and stuff but anywayz..this is what the site says.

Eugenie Markham is a powerful shaman who does a brisk trade banishing spirits and fey who cross into the mortal world. Mercenary, yes, but a girl's got to eat. Her most recent case, however, is enough to ruin her appetite. Hired to find a teenager who has been taken to the Otherworld, Eugenie comes face to face with a startling prophecy--one that uncovers dark secrets about her past and claims that Eugenie's first-born will threaten the future of the world as she knows it.

Now Eugenie is a hot target for every ambitious demon and Otherworldy ne'er-do-well, and the ones who don't want to knock her up want her dead. Eugenie handles a Glock as smoothly as she wields a wand, but she needs some formidable allies for a job like this. She finds them in Dorian, a seductive fairy king with a taste for bondage, and Kiyo, a gorgeous shape-shifter who redefines animal attraction. But with enemies growing bolder and time running out, Eugenie realizes that the greatest danger is yet to come, and it lies in the dark powers that are stirring to life within her...

Here is Richelle's website and y'all can read up about the books and stuff... http://richellemead.com

music rox my sox

2008-05-04T20:36:34Z

OMG!!! i just got A.F.I's cd december underground. and it completely and totally fuckin rox!!!!
my fav song is.... well actually i just love the whole cd. its that good. ^^
and yeah tomorrow(Monday) i'm like gonna borrow like 5,000 cds from my friends. okay so that was an exagguration.. but still.
i liek need them though cuz my iPod is/was like full of popish crap from the 90s (yes i am a 90s child and still remain one) so im kinda like updating my ipod with alternative and rock music.. :) i cant wait.

go alternative/punk rock music w00t w00t!!!!

oh btw. does anyone know what A.F.I even stands for???? cuz i don't

okayz then

2008-02-02T22:39:47Z

heyy

ok so nobody is reading this. mostly bcuz i only have one friend on here so now it just feels liek im talking to myself.. oh wells talking to yourself is funn =) elowelz. so whats new with me???
why its funny that i might ask myself that question because absolutely nothing is new with me.. except that i am trying to kick this annoying habbit of mine.. apparently i tend to say "so.." right before every sentence i say...

i have no clue why i do that.. i wish i did though.. cuz now its starting to annoy me. and that takes a lot to do..
anyways...

still need a topic(anyone who reads this)!!! help.

grazie,(thankyou in italian)

~musicllv~

Life

2008-01-26T05:34:06Z

Well life right now is ok i guess. Still no boyfriend, new semester in freshman year so,so far grades are not crappy. Anyways.. friends are just as crazy as eva and dramatic but hey its high school right. So yeah.. i dont know what to uhm journalize about so.. give me an idea any1 plz. :-)